The Tragedy of Covert Narcissism: We all know about narcissism because it’s widespread in the modern popular culture that we encounter in our every day lives. Yes narcissism is considered normal and possibly even a desirable trait. Some people actually admire the brash swagger and haughty glance of a narcissist told by society that they are special. Many of these pop icons are anything but special. They are in fact oftentimes the bottom of the barrel of society with no real abilities or accomplishments to speak of. But they are famous and to the superficial of the world that is enough. So is it any wonder that the average person thinks it appropriate to emulate these narcissists. Yes in our society the more you think of yourself the more value you have. It seems that in the past few decades parents have been in a mad rush to give their children just a slight edge over their peers by pumping their own children full of self esteem. Yes these children are praised into the heavens regardless of their accomplishments and the resulting over-inflated ego and sense of self is not a pretty sight. At least to those of us who are sane enough to realize the value of humility and accurate self assessment. This is the narcissism people are aware of, the overt type, the type many of us think is the only type until the day we encounter the serpent in human flesh called a covert narcissist. Yes the overt narcissist is aware of their narcissism and everyone they come in contact with is aware of it as well. You take these overt narcs or leave them but at least there is no question about what you are dealing with. Covert narcissism may share the label of narcissism, but it is an altogether different condition of the heart and soul. Covert narcissism is a malignancy, a pathology that destroys every person that has the misfortune of coming in contact with it. It is the evil twin of overt narcissism. Overt narcissism is out in the open, covert narcissism is by it's very nature, undetectable to the outside observer and possibly the covert narc isn't even fully aware of the scope of their own condition. Many a covert narc considers themselves noble and righteous and just thinks it fully acceptable to lie, cheat, steal, deceive people, and to pretty much do whatever they please and can get away with. Somehow the covert narc never sees any of these obviously wrong and evil actions as a problem. The covert narc at their core has an attitude problem, a soul that is profoundly diseased and because of this somehow believes they are entitled to be evil. The covert narc is a warped dis integrated individual full of contradictions that can't be explained rationally because the covert narc themselves is irrational. How can you even begin to understand or explain to someone that a narc thinks of themselves as superior to everyone and has totally convinced themselves of that and yet that self same narcissist doesn’t feel that they themselves have any intrinsic value. Yes paradoxically, the covert narcissist felt inferior, inadequate from as early as they can remember. Their way of coping with that was to convince the world and also themselves that they were more than what they were, different than what they were. Yes the narc felt that dealing with the reality of their true inner self was too painful and too complicated. The narc's attitude or method of coping was to develop an alter ego that would protect them from their difficulties in the real world and take them away from the actual person that they were. So if they were being emotionally abused by their parents or neglected, etc. that abuse or neglect was directed to an “other” and that allowed the narc even as a child to avoid any shame by disconnecting themselves from their real persona. So yes, the narc would be different. Different on the outside than they were on their inside. Usually that meant more intelligent, richer, more accomplished, but most importantly different. Yes even as a young child the narc never felt their inner self was good enough. You could say the narc felt that they were always “better than themselves”. Even from a very early age the narc began that cycle of deceptiveness to the outside world and to themselves, because deep inside the narc felt deficient, not good enough. So as the narc progressed through life they fulfilled their own prophecy,: they were deficient and not good enough. Yes, towards the middle and latter half of the narcissist's life they are exactly what they predicted they would be: a hollow shell with nothing inside of it at all and only a tenuous fake facade that needs careful maintenance so that no one can ever look behind it. At the core of that facade is a creature that never grew up and became more and more jaded as the years went by. How could such a tragedy occur? Because the narc never gave their real self a chance. A chance to develop, to grow, to learn from mistakes. It was so much easier for the narc to pretend than to do the work. Sadly, the narc had betrayed their own inner self, had not even shown loyalty to their own self. Yes, the narc divorced themselves from their own inner persona. So is it any wonder that after years and decades of putting on this show and betraying themselves that the narc has no ability to be truly loyal or commit to anyone?

With the em path or the narc abuse victim, there’s a similar problem with self-evaluation. They also feel they have no intrinsic value and therefore they see nothing wrong with being downgraded by those that they love around them. They see no problems with other people in their environment asserting their superiority over them. Yes, others around them are given every right to take away their accomplishments and their sense of self esteem. Others around them have every right to consider themselves superior to the em path or codependent. So this leads right into the theme of the difference between self-esteem and the more popular notion of self love. There is a very key difference. Self esteem means correctly estimating your abilities to do anything and correctly assessing your knowledge across a broad gamut of topics. Not assessing yourself to be less than what you’re capable of doing or knowing less than you know and not assessing yourself to be more capable than your actual abilities of what you can do or knowing more than you actually know. The third and possibly most important aspect of self-esteem is correctly assessing your self in relationship to others, being able to see that you are more accomplished than others in some areas and less accomplished or able in other areas. Yes, when you clearly see your own self more accurately, you can begin to understand the complexity of the human condition. Things aren't black and white, but instead each person no matter what walk of life they come from, has been given their own gifts. Again, the Bible spends a great deal of time discussing that each person has value in and of themselves and they should embrace both their own strengths and weaknesses. The Bible gives the analogy of believers in Christ being one body with each person being a member of that body with his or her own function, some people being feet and others hands, others eyes or ears. Each member of the body of Christ having their own purpose as described in 1 Corinthians 12 for example verse 17 and 18 “17 If the whole body were an eye, where would the sense of hearing be? If the whole body were an ear, where would the sense of smell be? 18 But in fact God has placed the parts in the body, every one of them, just as he wanted them to be.” Each person has been born with their own set of gifts and abilities and needs to embrace those abilities and use them in order to fully reach their true potential. This is the core of what makes the narc dysfunctional. The narc never realizes their own potential because they literally refuse to accept themselves for what they are or accurately assess their own capabilities. The narc runs away from their real self instead of embracing who and what they are. So this is a far better way to look at narcissism than to broach upon the subject of self-love. The Bible knows that each person intuitively has their own love of self. That is something that the Bible does not want us to cultivate. On the contrary, the Bible wants us to be less focused on the self and our own will and our own accomplishments and instead we should look at our value simply as how useful we can be to God in fulfilling His purposes through our lives. So a person's true value or assessment of themselves or self-esteem should be based on and really lies in how close we are to doing God's will in our lives. This removes our focus on ourselves. Yes the purpose of every person's life, if it is fully realized, is to glorify God. Anything that we do for our own self image and our own sense of accomplishment is robbing or taking away from that ideal purpose. We should look at our abilities not by what we personally can do but what we can do through God as His tool. To do this we need to fully realize and embrace the abilities or gifts that we were born with, that God gave us. If we allow ourselves to be used as God's tools we will realize our full value and have an accurate sense of our own value or self esteem. Both the narc and the em path have a self esteem problem and that is what creates Ross Rosenberg's aptly named “Human Magnet Syndrome”. The narc is so disconnected and divorced from their own core being and has neglected that being so that it remains an emotional infant. The narc simply refused to grow. So the narc got into the pattern of having to overestimate themselves at all times. The em path on the other hand simply grew up getting into the pattern of downgrading themselves and underestimating their abilities. The em path somehow was conditioned to believe it was noble and correct to let others take away any accomplishment, anything that they had or did. The em path felt it was totally OK to be denigrated and treated badly. The em path almost felt it was their purpose to be another person's doormat. Yes the narc copes by convincing themselves they are superior and the em path convinces themselves they were put on this earth to be another person's emotional enabler. The em path sees the energy that is being drained from them as giving love to another person. It never occurs to the em path that they should be concerned about any needs of their own. That would be selfish and wrong in the em path's opinion. The empath never sees the irony, that they actually feel it is quite alright for another person to be selfish. Yes the empath feels they are serving their intended purpose by allowing others that selfishness. Yes the narc agrees the empath was made to give it all to the narc. Now this human magnet syndrome might seem to be a workable situation, a symbiotic relationship, and maybe it could be if the narc had any ability to love and be concerned about another human being. Unfortunately, the narc doesn't have any empathy, commitment, or loyalty and that is when this situation takes an evil turn. That is what makes the narc the evil and rightfully maligned creature that they are, because the narc left their partner and simply used them for everything that they could get. So yes, that is the key difference in this dysfunctional “dance of death” or death spiral, it leaves one person as a victim. The key is for the em path to see and perceive what is going on and learn that they need to change. The em path has that ability, although it will be very difficult for them. The dysfunction of the narc on the other hand is so deeply ingrained and the damage the narc has done to themselves by neglecting personal development for literally a lifetime means that the narc is almost irredeemable or un reformable. Yes genetics and environment all play a role in the narc's twisted malevolence, but let's make no mistake, the narc also made choices. Choices to be evil, choices to turn a blind eye to another person's suffering, choices to lie and be duplicitous, choices to be a fraud. Yes ultimately the narc is a living breathing human being imbued with a mind that can think and the ability to see the difference between right and wrong and the narc has chosen to continue doing what they do. That is the tragedy of narcissism, certainly for the victim but also for the narcissist. Yes the narc viewed that relationship as a game and whatever we may say about the em path, the lion's share of the problem lies with the narcissist. Why? Yes that em path may have been an enabler, but here is the key difference. The em path was committed to the narc, they did love, they did care, and they were genuine. The em path was looking at things from a long term, lifetime perspective and although they may have overlooked the narcs deficiencies and may have even enabled them the em path had a long term goal and that was to help that narcissist become the person they knew that narc could be. So no there is NO equivalence whatsoever when it comes to the narc and the em path. The narc is the perpetrator plain and simple, The em path is the victim. It is the em path's responsibility to learn and be a victim no more. Now let's resume with our analysis of what creates a narcissist and take things a bit further. Yes that young narcissist has gotten into the habit of creating a false persona and masking their true inner self. They’ve taken the easy way out of every situation that they’ve ever been in and yet they somehow feel cheated and they somehow sense that their fake bravado and fake pronouncements of great accomplishment are all just delusions. Yes, on the inside the narcs know this. So the narcs look around them selves and become very envious when they see that there are genuine people that have legitimate accomplishments and this creates a great deal of envy in the narc. The narc's way of dealing with this is to tear those people with legitimate lives, legitimate personas, and legitimate accomplishments down. Let’s now break down what we’ve found out so far about narcissists. Number one, they set up a fake persona that protects them from whatever their real self is suffering or is unable to accomplish. Number two, they subconsciously sense their own inferiority and phoniness and seeing that others around them are the genuine article they become envious of those people. Three, the narc's way of coping with their subconscious understanding of their own inferiority and phoniness is to tear down those around them that have genuine accomplishments and to build up in themselves a sense of superiority. Yes the narc must be superior to everyone. But then the narc encounters another problem: they have to live in the real world. So in order to continue believing in their own superiority the narc creates a fantasy world for themselves, a fantasy world in which they are imbued with great abilities and accomplishments and where everyone around them is far less than they are. In order to construct and maintain this fantasy existence and maintain a position of superiority over others the narc needs to use every tool at their disposal. Those tools are One: lying, cultivating lying and being better at lying than anyone else around them. Two: Cultivating gaslighting so that they can disorient everyone around them and be the only one that knows the truth. Three: Insulating themselves from any real vulnerability to another person by not having any significant attachments to another human being. The roadblocks in the narc's path such as conscience, clear thinking, looking at themselves and their environment objectively, will have to be demolished. The narc's lack of attachment causes them to isolate themselves, put themselves into a bubble, literally prevents them from having any deep and emotionally satisfying interactions with other human beings. That emotional detachment also causes the narc to see people as mere objects or utilities or appliances in their environment. The narc truly becomes a very self-centered individual. Their sole concern is for themselves and for themselves alone. The narc will convince themselves that their own selfishness is an absolute necessity and what does it matter anyway since those around them have no value compared to the narc themselves. So the narc lives in a world of one. It’s a lonely world and an empty world, a world without substance or energy. Without deep attachment to other people the narc trades any vulnerability for a far greater problem. The narc has no ability to generate any positive emotions or have any self-created energy so in an ironic twist the narc, whose goal was to have no dependence on any other human being and to be totally self-sufficient and independent is actually the most dependent human being on earth. The covert narc cannot survive without the energy and fuel that they obtain from others. Yes the narc never understands the strength and courage it takes to make yourself vulnerable. The narc never sees their emotional detachment for what it really is, cowardice and to put it in the narc's terms inferiority and weakness. So that is the narcissists story. The victim's story is a very different one, because the very nature of a narcissist and their interaction with someone they call their partner creates the most incredible pain that a person could suffer in a relationship. The narcissist persists until that partner of theirs is 100% convinced the narc is serious, is 100% convinced the narc is committed. Once the narc has fully engaged their victim and gotten everything they want they simply walk away with no concern whatsoever about the pain that they cause. Then some of these narcissists go one step further and actually enjoy inflicting additional pain and suffering upon their ex partners. So yes, the victim of a narcissist is placed, through no fault of their own, into a very bizarre scenario. That victim of the covert narc needs to face a situation where they have deep love and concern about someone and that very same person has now become a stranger that has nothing but malevolent intentions towards them. The greatest slap in the face of all is the fact that the evil narc uses all of the confidences shared with them, all of the trust, all of the good wishes and kind actions directed towards them and uses those gestures of love against the victim. How can any person understand the level of depravity and lack of appreciation that can drive someone to cause as much pain as possible to the person who gave it all to the narc and never had anything but love for that narc. The evil that would actually take the good gifts given them and weaponize them. That is a covert narcissist and their method of operation. That is why no disparaging metaphor or statement about a narc can ever be too harsh. So does it require any additional explanation as to why covert narcissism is a tragedy? It is clearly a tragedy for the victim. The victim may look back on that narc encounter and see that it made them stronger, but for many victims that isn't the case. Some people are left scarred for life so the question is what was the significance of the narc in the victim's life? That narc encounter was a pause, a roadblock, a shock to the victim's system. That narc was a challenge, a mountain to climb and to some victims they can never see themselves ever getting to that summit and looking out at the bright horizon behind that lofty and intimidating peak. For me it was a challenge I could have never met without doing it with God's help and with His strength. I have not yet reached that mountaintop and I have no idea what I will find on the other side, but I have no doubt that it will be far superior to the desolation I have put behind me. That stark, emotionless, fake, phony world of a narcissist relationship. So what was the purpose for the victim to be in the narc's life? We can only speculate, but I will attempt to make a guess. The narc was given a chance for love, for understanding, for compassion. The narc was given a chance to heal and find peace. The narc was given everything a person should ever want and expect from life and that narc warped all of that good and threw it away like worthless garbage. So what was the victim's purpose for the narcissist? Each victim is another nail in the narc's coffin. Another reason that the narc has no excuse for being as evil as they were. Does the narc really believe they were never understood, never had love, never got a chance? Maybe. But the string of victims in that narc's wake tells a very different story. A story that narc will never be able to escape. So yes, in the end covert narcissism will be a tragedy for the narcissist themselves as well. But there will be no tears of sympathy for that creature as it's life unfurls around it, fully displayed with no ability to cover anything up, and like an anchor pulls it into the abyss. The lake of fire. A place of no return. Any narc alive may still have a chance, but it is only a matter of time before they get to the point of no return. Jesus can help, can save, but the vast majority of narcs won't have Him. Thank you for watching. Comments are welcomed. Peace be with you.

Judas: Portrait of a Covert Narcissist: When it comes to understanding pathological narcissists, whether covert or overt, the Bible is a treasure trove of information. No other source can surpass the insight we can get from God's word. Yes, the Bible seems to place a spotlight, a magnifying glass on narcissists and makes a point of emphasizing God's great displeasure with narcissism of all types. In fact the attitudes God calls out most as displeasing to Him just about describe every trait of a narcissist. Yes, the narc has gone fully against God in their attitude towards life, they pay God no heed and simply do as they please. Lying, backbiting, bearing false witness, doing any foul act that they can get away with and showing no conscience, guilt, or remorse is all very displeasing to God and He specifically lists these traits as an abomination to Him. Yes, the haughty attitude of the narc and their lies are all considered the worst characteristics a human being could portray according to the Bible. The narc may give lip service to God, but their actions, which extend to the incredible immoral and lax standards that some narcs allow for their children, shows a complete lack of concern or acknowledgment that God even exists. Not all narcs raise their children this way but a select few do and they allow their children license to do things that would give even most secular people pause. The laws of God are written upon each person's conscience, but the narcissist either lacks a conscience or has ignored their conscience over the course of their lifetime and therefore their conscience became calloused and then seared. So without a conscience even a church going narc is actually much less moral than an atheist that follows their conscience when it comes to raising children, or in other conduct. The atheist at least does the right thing, even if for the wrong reasons or motivations, and as such is at least living by honest standards. The atheist is at least true to themselves and a coherent, sane human being. This is not the case for the narcissist. The narc is never what they appear to be and has no integrity in the real sense of that word. The narc is a dis integrated person for lack of a better word because the narc has a total disconnect between who they are internally and who they appear to be. Yes an atheist can be a decent person and even many narcs at least love their children enough to not allow them to cultivate lying, and other lascivious activity. But the immorality of modern society has given a select few narcs some very novel ideas about child rearing and these narcs take those standards to a new level. This is the sad state of affairs when a person not only has a total lack of concern with regard to standards of decency as outlined by the Bible, and on top of that doesn't even have a conscience to govern them. Yes, God's opinion doesn't matter, the narc knows better and no, a conscience is a quaint idea, but the narc is evolved and has freed themselves of the troubling and burdensome codes of common decency. The narc creates their own standards because they are above it all and on top of that it gives them license to do as they please. The bottom line here is when you combine a lack of conscience with a lack of concern for God's opinion you actually create a behavior pattern, an attitude that is what an outside observer would describe as narcissism. So in a real sense we have just put our finger on the two most important cures for narcissism if a narc would ever want to help themselves. One, the narc would have to do everything in their power to begin awakening and growing their conscience and two, a narc would have to begin giving God proper respect and begin at least acknowledging that God exists and beginning the long journey to try to live according to God's will. Yes, religious narcissists exist, but these religious narcissists do their own will and disregard what God wants even though they have convinced themselves they are doing God's will. The Apostle Paul is a perfect example of a religious zealot who was actually a narcissist doing his own will. Jesus confronted Paul and this resulted in Paul's conversion and cure from narcissism. Paul's will was now in line with God and that made all of the difference. Yes the cure for narcissism, as shown by the conversion of the Apostle Paul, is Jesus. So now we cover the sad case of a covert narcissist. A person who thought themselves clever and was deluded into thinking they were getting away with everything. A person who thought of no one but themselves and thought they had all of the angles covered. A person who enjoyed putting on an act and deceiving others and this bolstered their pride even further. Yes, getting away with lies can be addictive and yes it creates confidence, but it is a false confidence, the false confidence of all narcissists. Yes, when a person is dedicated to lying to the extent that a narc is they begin to believe they have control of everything. Yes, the narc believes everything is in the palm of their hand. That very notion is absurd, but the narc is too drunk on themselves to see it. Yes, the narc has pulled off one ruse after another, but in the end they have missed the big picture and have deceived themselves. The narc has lost sight of what is important in life and missed the opportunity that life presented them. The narc will never have peace and joy. Think about the ignorance of a person who can't even see why being truthful and presenting yourself honestly is simply a more efficient and more practical way of living life than the ridiculous attitude of the narcissist. The narc sees the low hanging fruit, sees opportunities and can never understand why people don't take those opportunities. The answer is that people have a moral compass and a person who engages in moral behavior, whether they are secular atheists or religious, intuitively understands why you don't simply do something because you can get away with it. So the narc's ignorance is fully visible to anyone who takes notice and the narc, being aware of this takes great pains to do everything in secret, covertly. But the narc never covers all of the angles as they think they are doing and in the end the narc's motives and actions are fully exposed in the light. Yes, in an effort to blind others, to pull the wool over other people's eyes, the narc has blinded themselves. The victims, which stack up during the course of a narcissist's life, may never see justice and to them the narc simply goes on with their evil ways and somehow never has to pay. But sometimes the victim just has to understand that their encounter with a narcissist has presented them with a challenge. The challenge is to let go, not seek vengeance and leave it all with God. The problem the narc gives the victim is a huge burden that requires huge amounts of effort to overcome, but in the end a victim can find their way back to peace and back to joy. So the story of Judas is especially important for a victim to hear since the sad end of a covert narcissist is plainly laid out in front of us and that end is very tragic. We must leave that narcissist in God's hands and if we can fully comprehend the danger that narc is in we should try and pray for those poor creatures. Yes the narc will pay and pay with interest. Yes, Judas spent three years pretending to be a follower of Christ. He put on the perfect show and no one suspected him. Yes the other eleven Apostles when told one person among them would betray Jesus, Judas was never even suspected. An outsider would have never seen Judas as the betrayer. No, Judas didn't have beady eyes or seem like a dishonest person with something to hide. Judas may well have looked like the kindest and most sincere and most caring as well as the most devoted of the 12 disciples. So we move on to John 13 21 to 29: Yes, Jesus said one of them would betray Him and He even made note that the one He gives the bread to is that person, but the disciples witnessing this still couldn't see Judas as the betrayer. Then Jesus told Judas “do what you must do quickly”. So Judas understood that Jesus knew everything but nothing would stop Judas with his encounter with destiny. Yes, by then Satan had entered Judas, that and his self-deluded sense of himself meant that there was almost nothing that could stop him from proceeding with the betrayal. So now we will focus more closely on the sad case of Judas. Jesus was never deceived about Judas, we see this in John 6 64: “But there are some of you that believe not. For Jesus knew from the beginning who they were that believed not, and who should betray him”. Then Jesus became more specific and made mention of one of the apostles being a devil as stated in John 6 70: “ Jesus answered them, Have not I chosen you twelve, and one of you is a devil?”. Judas was present for all of it and yet somehow he was convinced that he could get away with his deception. Yes, Jesus was aware from the start, and yet He purposely put Judas in charge of the money. Yes, clever Judas had his hand in the till stealing from the funds and really believed he was getting away with it. Judas was so wrapped up in himself and his overconfidence in his abilities to deceive that he was totally blind to the fact that he was following God in human flesh. Judas never put together the pieces that Jesus saw it all and it wouldn't have taken that much effort or logic to realize it, being that Judas witnessed all of Jesus' abilities first hand. But Judas couldn't see the obvious because he was too focused on deceiving. Yes, Judas put on the perfect act deceiving every one of his fellow apostles. So when the final hour was approaching Jesus mentioned that one of the apostles would betray Him as stated in Matthew 26 21: “And while they were eating, he said, "Truly I tell you, one of you will betray me."
Then one after another of the apostles asked is it me? Now lets listen to Matthew 26 25: “Then Judas, the one who would betray him, said, "Surely you don't mean me, Rabbi?" Jesus answered, "You have said so." So Judas and the disciples were told point blank it would be Judas, but even then the apostles couldn't believe Judas was the betrayer, that is how good a show Judas made of his piety. More importantly though, even Judas when told to his face Jesus knew he was the betrayer still believed he would get away with everything and prevail. That is how self deluded and irrational the narcissist gets. They can't see reality and truth right in front of their face. They have spent so much time, put in so much effort and devotion to deception that the narc becomes self deluded never realizing that they are deceiving themselves. But the story of Judas is much worse than that and to get more detail we need to go back to the gospel of John when Jesus was asked who would betray him. John 13 25 to 26: “Leaning back against Jesus, he asked him, "Lord, who is it?" Jesus answered, "It is the one to whom I will give this piece of bread when I have dipped it in the dish." Then, dipping the piece of bread, he gave it to Judas, the son of Simon Iscariot.” Amazingly enough even after this the apostles couldn't believe it was Judas that would be the betrayer. Yes a narcissist can definitely put on a show and make people believe they are good trustworthy people, but God in this case in the form of the Son, Jesus, is never deceived. So then we get to the biggest part of the tragedy of Judas the point of no return as described in John 13 27: “As soon as Judas took the bread, Satan entered into him. So Jesus told him, "What you are about to do, do quickly." Yes Satan entered into Judas and he marched to his doom. Yes even before departing Judas heard Jesus say clearly in Matthew 26 24: “The Son of Man will go just as it is written about him. But woe to that man who betrays the Son of Man! It would be better for him if he had not been born." Yes Judas heard that warning but it made no difference. All of those years of deception had finally caught up with him and no amount of warning would make any difference and in the end Judas simply became Satan's instrument, a puppet that had lost all control of his own destiny. Yes, years of putting emphasis on the material while putting on the pretense of spirituality had now put Judas on a collision course with destiny. So Judas got his 30 pieces of silver and gave Jesus that kiss. But there is one more critical piece of information that has to be discussed. Judas had led over 600 people to apprehend Jesus. Lets go to Matthew 26 48 to 50: “Now he who was betraying Him gave them a sign, saying, "Whomever I kiss, He is the one; seize Him." And forthwith he came to Jesus, and said, Hail, master; and kissed him. And Jesus said unto him, Friend, wherefore art thou come? Then came they, and laid hands on Jesus, and took him. So what is the key here? Even after kissing Jesus and betraying Him, Judas was still called a friend by Jesus and given one last chance. But Judas was too filled with himself to even see what was being offered him and more importantly Judas didn't even care for the last chance Jesus had offered him.
We then go to Matthew 27 3 to 5: “When Judas, who had betrayed him, saw that Jesus was condemned, he was seized with remorse and returned the thirty pieces of silver to the chief priests and the elders. "I have sinned," he said, "for I have betrayed innocent blood." "What is that to us?" they replied. "That's your responsibility." So Judas threw the money into the temple and left. Then he went away and hanged himself. Yes Judas finally felt remorse but to understand this we need to contrast Judas with Peter who promised to never deny Jesus or fall away and then denied Him three times. Peter repented of his failure and was forgiven. Judas was simply unhappy that he didn't get what he wanted for his efforts. Yes, Judas realized that he sinned and realized that his gain wasn't worth the cost. So it is quite interesting to note that Peter, the overconfident, frail sinful and weak human, failed, and having realized he failed, sought forgiveness and was forgiven for not being perfect. Judas succeeded in his plans, got everything his way and in getting it his way despite one chance after another to turn around kept going and in so doing sealed his fate. My thanks to the clear exposition and contrast of Peter and Judas provided by Greg Laurie. Yes the "chickens do eventually come home to roost" and the narcissist will never be able to escape the reality of their terrible deeds. Just like Judas, who was very disappointed and disillusioned after selling out Jesus, that narc got what they wanted and received their "30 pieces of silver", but it was a hollow victory. It came at someone else's great expense and worst of all the narc will wish they never got that silver. But it is too late. They wanted it, now they have it and they can't give the silver back. Here is the difference. The narc is still alive and they still have ears to hear and a mind that thinks. It has been laid out for them, they have been warned. So here is the question: will the narc perceive what happened to Judas and comprehend that they are just as deluded as he was? Will the narc understand the grave danger they are in and understand that they are deluding, deceiving themselves? Will the narc realize that eventually they run the risk of being mere puppets for Satan? Sadly, most narcs will think this is all a joke, a waste of time. The narc doesn't want the truth and loves their lies, but the price they pay for denying reality will be a high one. Perhaps they might also be in a situation where it would have been better if they were never born. They can call on Jesus and they can be saved and all can be forgiven. But how many times can someone get a second chance? Pray for the narcissists, maybe it will help but maybe it will be a waste of your time. We wish no one the terrible ending of Judas then, or the suffering he will be doing for eternity. Thank you for watching. Comments are welcomed. Peace be with you. End Quote: The Narc always does what is “convenient” (best for themselves) regardless of the cost to another human being. Sadly, many narcs even put themselves before their own children. But the narc then finds themselves in one “inconvenient” situation after another. Each of those situations are a direct result of those quick fixes, but the narc never makes the connection. No the narc never accepts responsibility. The victim should rest assured, the narc will pay for all that they have done. With interest.

The Root Cause of Narcissist Relationship Abuse- Can it be Found? The motivations of a narcissist remain a mystery to most unfortunate victims that have been in a relationship with these fiends. The assumptions of the victims were that they were in an honest two way relationship and this caused the victimized partners to believe that the narcissist had the same feelings and motivations and reasons for the relationship than those victims did. When the narc showed signs of disloyalty or indifference or any other behavior that didn't fit those assumptions, such as apparent lack of empathy, the victim always made excuses because that victim believed in their heart that the narc loved them every bit as much as they did and the narc was every bit as committed to them as they were to the narc. The narcissist confirmed to the victim that they had nothing to worry about as well and the case was closed. The narcissist was very crafty in the way they gradually devalued the victim in the sense that the victim hardly noticed that the narc was gradually disrespecting them, gradually making them lose their sense of self respect and self esteem, gradually making them question their perception of reality. Yes it was a tour de force of manipulation and the narc attacked from every possible angle relentlessly. Then came the discard. Sudden, calloused, abrupt with absolutely no mercy or compassion on the part of the narcissist. The victim was blindsided and left confused and puzzled. Then all of those issues of the past, the pieces that didn't add up, the behavior that didn't fit the narrative of the narc's professed love, devotion, and commitment, started making sense. But the conclusion that the discarded victim came to was a very harsh one. It seemed that the narc never really loved them or cared about them, ever. It seemed that the narc was really serious about leaving their partner and really didn't care about the damage they were doing. It seemed the narc actually enjoyed flaunting their new relationship, making sure the previous partner had the maximum pain. It seemed that the narc truly and suddenly abandoned the relationship and just as suddenly had a new intimate committed relationship with someone else. Yes all of those things seemed true, but in the immediate aftermath of that discard the victim couldn't believe it. In fact the victim was so overwhelmed that denying the incredible truth that they faced was an absolute necessity. It was a survival mechanism. Yes, the victim had to convince themselves that the narc hadn't really done all that they just did or if they did do all of those things there had to be some plausible explanation. Surely the narc had feelings for the victim and would be back to try and repair the damage. Surely the narc really cared. With time the ugly reality of that partner's calloused heart became apparent to the victim and more importantly the victim was gradually able to accept that truth. Yes, that partner was a covert narcissist and as much as the victim tried to deny that fact, time made that truth obvious. Yes, time had gone by and emotions had calmed and maybe now that the dust had settled that narc would come back and at least have a reasonable conversation. Surely that narc cared enough to see how their ex was doing. After all they had once made a lifetime commitment to that partner. No, the narc never came. It wasn't in their interest to show any compassion whatsoever to their previous lifetime partner, so why do it? Let that previous partner rot and wallow in their own misery. The narc was powerful, they had the strength to walk away and never look back. Yes the narc thought themselves superior and deserving of their new relationship. After all that narcissist was the victim! They were the devoted ones that had been betrayed! At least that is the story they were telling their new partner and that made the bond between that new couple all the deeper. So the victim of the narcissist gradually put together all of the pieces and over time began the long journey of getting themselves back, but their was still a nagging question, a question that just didn't have any logical answer. Why would the narcissist do this to another human being? Why would the narc insist on a relationship and get everything they wanted and then abruptly leave? What was going on in that mind of theirs? Yes it is now clear, and it can take a year or more to understand it, but it is now clear that narcissist never loved their ex. So why expend all of that energy? Why lie about everything? Why would one person do that to another human being? The narc had done this many times before and witnessed the meltdown of their discarded victims again and again. Didn't that narc have any concern at all about the harm they were causing others? Well the short answer is no, the narc didn't care about any of those people. No, on the contrary the narc looks back on those experiences and sees themselves as the strong one. The narc looks back at the behavior of their previous victims as they became irrational under the emotional torture inflicted upon them by that narc with detached amusement. Yes, those victims are the narcissist's trophies. Especially the ones that were reported to the authorities and were formally and publicly turned into the perpetrators. Yes, those victories of the narcissist always pick up that narc's spirits. After all, it means the narc won. So no, the narc doesn't care about anyone but themselves. No effort would ever be expended on another person if there was no gain for the narcissist. So what would cause a person to do these things to other human beings, to cause so much pain and damage? More importantly can an answer to that question help others avoid these narcissists in the future? So let's try to answer the question of what motivates that narcissist when it comes to relationships. We now live in an age where sex is a mere pass time, a recreational activity. There is no longer any shame associated with sex and in fact the only concern is to do it safely and to avoid an unwanted pregnancy. So any person who wants to put constraints on this sexual behavior is now considered out of step with modern thinking. All of that being said though, a human being, even if they are secular, intuitively forms a bond with a person they have a physical relationship with and there is that intuitive feeling most of us still have that we want to be serious about a relationship before we get physical. Most of us still have a heart that yearns for one and only one person in our lives and that act of physical intimacy does bond us to that other person. Of course there is the pleasure aspect of sex, but deep inside most people take this act seriously and understand sex to have much greater significance. The narcissist is of a different opinion and isn't weighed down by the constraints of morality. Yes, the narcissist views sex differently. The narc doesn't bond with those they have sex with. This may be because of the numerous sex partners they have had over the course of their lives, but it also has to do with the fact that they don't bond or form deep emotional attachments to others. So for a narcissist they see mostly the pleasure aspect of sex as their motivator. The narc has only one concern and that is never to be publicly known to be having sex with multiple people because the narc is first and foremost concerned about their billboard or public persona. Yes, the narc still realizes that lax sexual standards are frowned upon, so the narc maintains a public image of respectability. So how is this significant in a narcissist relationship? How does this attitude play itself out when the narc interacts with others? Well the narc sees an opportunity for sex and just has to take it. The plans have to be laid carefully, but if the narc is in one relationship and wants something on the side or wants to gradually transition to another partner they need to set a foundation that paints them as in some sort of distress. Maybe that narc, who never has any intention of leaving their moneyed husband will tell someone they are in a sexless marriage and are staying together only until the children graduate. Or maybe the narc meets a man that is far more successful than their current partner and then that partner is demonized as an abuser and the new person, who just happens to have money, is gone to as a protector. Maybe the narc simply loses interest in a business man and now wants an experience with a firefighter or an ex military man. For the male narcissist it may just be another opportunity at work or the allure of a younger woman. Either way that male narc will convince himself and oftentimes that partner that he is misunderstood and will allude to being in a sexless marriage. The list is endless, but the whole thing boils down to the fact that the narc only has the motivation of the pleasure aspect of sex, they are always seeking that new experience. When the narc finally achieves that goal of the new physical relationship they will either be dealing with a fellow narc that is also just seeking a quick fix in which case they are both in agreement or they will have to play a person seeking a long term relationship. The narc loves to mix things up. So the narc will then convince their serious partner that they are serious as well. This is where the problems start for the partner who is serious. Yes that partner may even become that narc's spouse. But it doesn't really matter, eventually the narc tires, gets bored and undoubtedly will begin to stray from the relationship definitely mentally and almost definitely physically. So you could make the argument that boiling the narc's motivation down to sex is being too simplistic. What about the love bombing” What about all of the pleasure the narc gets from gaslighting, demoralization, future faking, lying? Yes all of those things are sources of energy for the narc, but it is that sexual bond that the partner has and the narc doesn't that makes all of that other depravity possible. Yes it is the sex that is pure pleasure for the narc because not only is it physically pleasant, it also gives the narc power over their victim since it causes the victim to become ever more emotionally bonded to that narc and that gives the narc an even greater high, knowing that they have emotional control over that victim. So now we see how even a decent person who takes sex seriously and would never just do it for recreation can be caught in the narc's web. The narc gets into this person's heart and mind by mimicking a chaste individual. My ex partner told me I was only the second person she had ever been with and it was clearly understood that we would be sharing the rest of our lives together and right from the beginning that meant a clear path to eventual marriage before any physical activity was engaged in. She said and did whatever it took. I will spare the details of what I later found out was the reality of her past. It was shocking to say the least. So what is the possible root cause of narcissist relationship abuse? It is the narc's use of sex to make another person bond with them. For myself it is clear I could have avoided everything by sticking to what I knew was correct. Not engaging in premarital sex. That narc would have needed to give more than lip service to a lifetime commitment and eventual marriage and the price of my heart would have been too high. So ultimately for myself I realize that I could have avoided a lot of grief. But how do you say no to a person who is crying out for help and is telling you they are lonely and being abused and needs you? Someone who touches you deeply and makes you want to be there for them even before the first notion of physical activity? Other more unfortunate souls did keep a high standard and still ended up with a narcissist, but now they were married to that person. So in a sense it is very difficult to avoid these narcs. However being more cautious, more vigilant before ever giving someone your heart and mind, let alone your body, combined with your new found knowledge of narcissism will go a long way towards preventing this tragedy from befalling you again. Thank you for watching. Comments are welcomed. Peace be with you.

Lessons Learned from the Narcissist: There are many who feel that dwelling on your narcissist abuse is unhealthy and that it is somehow an impediment to the healing process. The argument goes you are still giving power to the narcissist when you refuse to move on mentally and emotionally. The physical departure was long ago. That point is valid to a certain extent and the advice given is received gratefully. Yes those people telling you to move on mentally and emotionally are giving heartfelt advice and have your best interests in mind. Some of us however, need to continue to dwell on this era of our lives and try to get a deep understanding of what was going on. My personal opinion is that the more we understand about narcissism as individuals in our own personal situation and about narcissism in general, the better. If we can share what we have learned with others and network this can help the greater community of victims as well. More knowledge ultimately empowers the victim and takes that power away from the narcissist. No narcissist considers the attention they get by having their methods of operation exposed a sign that they are maintaining power over that victim,. My opinion. The narc is mainly wanting what they do behind closed doors to remain private. So anyway, it has been almost a year since the abuse by this narcissist has ended, and strangely enough more and more information about what was going on in that relationship continues to surface. There are weekly and sometimes daily revelations and what that means for the victim is that it is not yet time to let everything go. Yes, healing is taking place, but that victim still has to resolve many issues and inconsistencies that occurred in that narc relationship. There is still much to learn for some of us and one of the most important things we meed to focus on is what made that narc choose us, target us. So yes, self introspection is part of the learning process. So what did the narc teach the target? Well, we like to call the target victim an em path and that is true, the narc's victims are usually more empathetic to other people and have more compassion and sympathy. Yes, those people always choose to trust others and always give others the benefit of the doubt and tend to overlook the faults of others. So a narc can easily hone in on those qualities and sees an easy target, since the narc can easily deceive a person with these qualities of trusting others. Of course once in the relationship, the victim is even more likely to be forgiving and overlook inconsistencies in what the narc says and does. So yes, we have the perfect recipe in this dance of death or death spiral. Ross Rosenberg's human magnet syndrome. The damage will be nearly exclusively borne by the target, but in a sense the narc also dies because they lose another piece of their soul, of their humanity, whatever their was of it, every time they devour their next target. So some of us victims will need to understand this situation thoroughly and try to rectify or fix the problem. Yes, one of the em path's qualities is to be a “fixer”, to help someone who is deeply troubled and in pain and of course the narcissists, male or female, played the victim in spades. Yes the narc was the ultimate victim, the damsel in distress or dark broken rebel that you just “needed to get to know” and played every ounce of the em path's need to fix to their own advantage. But now the victim can use that need to fix and focus on themselves. So what did the em path have to learn from the narc? Well what the narc would be pleased to accomplish is to make that em path never trust someone again. Yes, the em path never understood the dynamic of what was going on in that relationship. The em path was convinced that the narc saw all of their qualities of kindness, forgiveness and ability to trust and admired them for it. What was really going on in that narc's mind as they smiled at us and told us how wonderful we are? Well in actuality, the narc thought us weak minded fools, naive people who had never had the adversity that they, the poor narc had suffered. The narc looked at those positive qualities of the em path and thought why shouldn't I take advantage, that hapless clown will never even know that they were being played and when I am done draining them of their energy I will weave an intricate tale that they will believe hook line and sinker. So yes, the narc sees themselves as justified in taking advantage of the victim and they see those positive qualities in the victim not as assets, or strengths, but as weaknesses. So that is the first thing the victim learns. No, that narc never loved us and more importantly they never admired any of what we considered good in ourselves and they never respected us for who we were. Now you could make the argument that the narc doesn't respect themselves either. But that is not our problem that is the narc's problem. If nothing else, those of us who tried to break through to that narc know the futility of that task of making excuses and trying to understand the narc. So the next lesson learned by the victim is what evil really is. Of course the em path was aware that there are evil people in the world but the mistake the em path made is that they thought their idea of an evil person was all their was. Yes, it is clear the mugger down the street, the bank robber, the rapist, the white collar swindler are all evil. But the problem for the em path was that they didn't understand that sometimes evil can masquerade as a friend. The benign, humble and restrained covert narc, a wolf in sheep's clothing if there ever was one, was definitely custom made to get into the em path's blind spot. So yes, the victim should now understand that evil can masquerade as good. The Bible clearly speaks about wolves in sheep's clothing and describes the father of lies, Satan, as a being who masquerades as an angel of light. So is it any wonder that the narcissists think THEY are in control when they can so easily manipulate the em path with their lies? The devil is more than happy to allow his possessions, the narcs,to have that opinion. Yes, Satan owns that narcissist, no doubt. The em path that dwells on this and learns has done themselves a favor and patched a major vulnerability in themselves. So now the em path will look for red flags. What are those red flags? Excessive flattery in the beginning of a relationship, mirroring, idealization, ever increasing inconsistencies of what the person insists is true and your perception of what happened, in other words pathological lying, the list goes on. We aren't interested in discussing what goes on AFTER the relationship commences, we are simply interested in detecting and avoiding the relationship in the first place. So hopefully the em path knows how to avoid another entanglement with a narcissist at least on a personal level. There may be no choice in a work setting. So how does the lesson of detecting narcissists and then avoiding them help the em path? Well, it serves a very critical role in allowing the em path to regain a sense of themselves and have an added confidence that it is OK to be giving and trusting again. No, the em path isn't going to be fixing a broken person again. No, the em path will not be taken in by the flattery of the damsel in distress, or dark rebel that just needs someone to understand him. But the em path will not be broken or have their spirit, their positive light diminished. Yes the em path will protect themselves and not make themselves vulnerable, but that will never stop them from caring about others or wanting to help. So knowing that evil exists and knowing that it sometimes pretends to be mild and benign and your best friend can allow the em path to scrutinize those angels (actually devils) in disguise and fully retain their humanity. So yes, the narcissist can teach the em path valuable lessons. It is essential for the victim to continue dwelling on that time with the narcissist so that they can fully comprehend the scope of that con that was perpetrated on them by the narcissist. But that is for information about themselves and how they need to protect their vulnerabilities. Yes those revelations of the truth will breed anger, rage, and resentment and that is where it is critical to give that need for vengeance to God. Giving God that vengeance means that God can also allow more information about that narc relationship to be revealed to you. So yes, sometimes that rage, anger, and resentment actually prevent us from ever truly comprehending the full depth of what was done to us, the victim. Give it to God and He may reward you with the insight and wisdom that will result in your peace and a possibility of fully healing. But more importantly this can make room for a relationship with someone who does have the capacity for love and empathy. If not, the prospects of being single for the rest of this life will certainly be more tolerable once you understand that that relationship you lost and cling to was never real in the first place. No, the narc never loved you, the narc never cared, the narc never even respected you, the narc never appreciated all of the good in you other than to use it to their advantage, and no, the narc NEVER appreciated the love, concern, devotion, and loyalty you gave them. Yes, when the narc was finished taking their last meal and had sucked their victim dry they turned the tables on the victim and projected all of their own evil onto the victim. Yes, the slimy narcissist expertly made the victim feel like the disloyal one, the liar, the one who lacked commitment, the monster, and at that end stage of the relationship the victim believed it all. How curious that a victim can believe they have been disloyal and not committed when told that by the narcissist and her new boyfriend. Yes this is the narc's master stroke and the final show of their self deluded superiority to the last partner and victim. The narc cheats and is disloyal and lacks commitment. The narc lies through their teeth and in a final power grab for the rest of what remains of the victim's self worth the narc actually convinces the victim that they are the evil ones. If this isn't the definition of diabolical I don't know what is. Sadly, the narcissist actually believes their own deception and truly believes themselves to be the victim. God, the enlightened victim, and an increasing number of people in the greater society know otherwise. Remember that the narcissist is a psychopath that lacks courage. Yes, the narcissist is a psychopath that becomes highly neurotic under pressure. No, the average narcissist doesn't necessarily like hurting people, they just don't care if others are hurt if it doesn't effect them. Narcissists are highly concerned with any implications of their actions, especially when it may affect their public persona, their highly cherished “billboard”. Yes, the narc will think of every potential consequence of any possible action to the point of absurdity. Yes, the narcissist is a coward. The psychopath will commit crimes, take what they want and do harm without regard to consequences, but not the narcissist weasel. They will only do these things if they feel that they won't be caught. By the last few definitions I had the unique privilege of being with a borderline psychopath. Yes, she enjoyed hurting me and she did steal, but she did it in a way that she would never be found out. Her absolute lack of concern for the damage she had done to me was also never in doubt. I could have jumped off a bridge for all that she cared. No effect on her whatsoever. On the contrary, my demise would have been another proof of her superiority over another human being and another problem solved. She may have even been gleeful, one of the rare times she actually was happy. Her plans backfired because she was overconfident and underestimated her victim. She was also still a coward and when her bullying was met with defensive force she quickly reverted to “damsel in distress”, victim status with her new male friend. He was also a cowardly narcissist who quickly ran at any possible confrontation. Super em paths have a way of turning up in a narcissist's life when they least expect it. Not every em path will simply curl up and die on demand. So is it really that bad to be single? A year away from any narcissist will give a clear answer. Yes it is good to be away and have a mind that clearly thinks and a life that is real and makes sense. Thank you for watching. Comments are welcomed. Peace be with you.

Spiritual Help For The Narcissist Abuse Victim: The path to healing from narcissist abuse is different for all of us and some people simply prefer purely secular methods of achieving that healing. If this has led to someone's full recovery I am glad for them and wish them a life filled with joy. Any person who has survived an encounter with a narcissist deserves that. However some of us do want to use both secular and spiritual tools and today I would like to specifically focus on some spiritual methods of resolving the damage left after the narcissist has moved on to their next victim. One of the main things that hold the victim back from a full recovery is the issue of resentment for the narc abuse victim. Letting go of that resentment can be a daily exercise and over time we can achieve relative peace in our lives, but resolving that resentment seems a never ending task. Why is this? Well partly because there are so many episodes of abuse and every time the memory of a lie or a cruelty or any sort of abuse comes to the victim's mind the resentment once again wells up in the victim. To compound the problem as time goes on and the victim reassesses that time with the narcissist in light of the truth more and more lies and duplicity come to the surface and the victim seems to have a never ending supply of new revelations of the abuse. A second subconscious reason the victim clings to their resentment is that it may be the only thing that binds them to the narcissist, the only thing that the discarded victim still has to hold on to. So in an unusual twist of events the victim can still be close to the narcissist while they indulge their resentment. The alternative to letting go of the resentment in this case is being alone and that even seems worse for the victim. However, another way of looking at it is that the resentment itself is responsible for the victim isolating themselves. No matter the cause let's make it clear the victim's resentment is a natural response to the cruel and callous actions of the narcissist. Let's remember the narcissist had no mercy whatsoever. That narc saw the suffering of their previous partner and didn't just turn a cold shoulder to that victim, they actually took the opportunity to inflict more pain on their vulnerable ex partner. No compassion, no mercy. So it is quite natural for the resentment to build in the victim as the victim wakes up to what narcissism is and truly begins to comprehend the enormous scale of that narc's duplicity and the mind boggling percentage of lying that the narc had done. Yes with knowledge that resentment just grows and grows. So in a sense, that resentment that goes along with the awakening and knowledge of the victim almost neutralizes the progress gained by the revelations of the truth. So this is where spirituality can have a critical role in reversing that trend. Allowing the victim to learn more and more of the truth, understand what really was happening to them in that relationship, while at the same time not allowing that new information to breed new resentment. I will be exclusively giving the Christian perspective from here on out. To begin healing that resentment spiritually we have to focus on key passages of the Bible and then comprehensively analyze all aspects of what these passages are saying. The first important passage we need to look at is one we have covered numerous times that passage is found in Romans 12 19 “ Do not take revenge, my dear friends, but leave room for God's wrath, for it is written: “It is mine to avenge; I will repay,” says the Lord.” The second equally important passage is found in Galatians 6 7 “Do not be deceived, God is not mocked: for whatsoever a man soweth, that shall he also reap.” So let's break these passages down and really understand what they are saying. First you have to ask yourself do you believe in God? Think about this long and hard and make sure you are answering honestly. If you do then you go to the next step. Do you believe that God is greater than you are and knows more than you do? Are you willing to submit your will to God? Do you trust that God knows what He is talking about? Do you believe that God will always keep His promises? If you have answered all of those questions affirmatively then you can go to the next step. Do you believe that the Bible is God's word and do you believe that the advice given in the Bible is trustworthy? If so then you take the next step and actually start the healing process by taking God's advice and listening to His directions. So what exactly is God telling us in Romans 12 19? Well He is telling us vengeance belongs to Him. So think about what we are doing when we hold on to that need for vengeance. We are literally keeping that need for vengeance and not letting it go. No we aren't holding it in our hands, at least in our hands there would be the possibility of dislodging it. But we are actually holding that urge for vengeance much more closely than by hand, it is in our hearts and has almost become a part of us. God is telling us that that vengeance doesn't belong to us it, belongs to Him and He is telling us to release our grip on that urge for vengeance. To let it go because that vengeance belongs to Him NOT us. So if we insist on holding on to that vengeance, we are at least in our hearts not believing or trusting the advice God is giving us. Now it is understandable that a narc abuse victim has problems trusting, but to not trust God is taking things too far and preventing us from taking His advice. God isn't just saying you should give Him that vengeance and telling you to have a good day, He is also telling you to stay out of His way because He will make sure the narcissist gets their payment. So in a sense that narc will never get their just reward if we don't give God that vengeance. God is clearly saying that the person who has wronged you will be re-payed and more specifically will get God's wrath as payment. If you don't want to believe God or trust God then ultimately that is the source of your not being able to let go of that vengeance. God isn't saying to just let it go, He is saying to have peace, relax He is taking that incredible burden off of your heart and carrying that load for you. He is showing you the path to peace, but to achieve that peace you have to listen to God. But just in case you aren't quite satisfied with that answer there is more information and that is contained in Galatians 6 7. Now the concept of karma is widely known and believed and most people believe in that concept to a certain extent. That concept of karma is open to wide interpretation with some going as far as putting themselves in the place of God. Yes the deluded narc actually called herself a goddess and made the statement that Karma was going to visit itself upon me because she was greatly displeased. Well of course that deluded narc thought she was being cute and cleaver with those threats, but in her own mind she really believed herself to have that kind of authority and by making those statements she gave away her total ignorance of how “cosmic retribution” actually functions. So let's dispense with the term karma and be more specific. You reap what you sew. Period. Yes there is a God that will provide the payment but He is decidedly male and decidedly apart from being human. So think about what the concept of sewing something means. It means you plant a seed and that small seed will eventually mature into a plant that is exponentially larger and of a totally different nature than the seed that it sprang from. In the same way that evil and all of that terrible abuse that narcissist perpetrated upon the victim will also germinate and grow and eventually the narcissist will have to reap that mature harvest. So the victim has to keep this in mind. We victims truly loved that narcissist and did nothing but good for them we also sewed seeds, but our seeds were of a positive nature. So the victim will also reap the product of their seeds the good product. What does this all mean? Well the narcissist will pay for all of their evil and you if you have done good for that narcissist and truly loved them will also be rewarded for all of those acts of love that were wasted on the unappreciative narcissist. I only have one narcissist as a tangible example, but that narcissist was continually alluding to all of the terrible abuse she had suffered at the hands of her mother and her mother's boyfriends as well as a previous partner. Her descriptions of the cruelty that had been perpetrated on her were heartbreaking to me and made me that much more committed to showing her that love did exist and that all of her suffering was not in vain. She had shunned both her siblings and her mother because of the alleged abuse. To be sure she had not been given a ideal childhood. But that was before. Before the abuse, cruelty and treachery she had perpetrated upon me. To be sure what she did to me far eclipsed any of her accounts of that deprived childhood of hers. Yes, that narc was far worse than that mother of hers and those siblings of hers. Or those boyfriends. Yet she continues to consider herself the victim. It stands to reason that even when it came to her time growing up it was she who had been the worst and most toxic member of that family. I want to believe that she never did worse to anyone than what she did to me, but I can't be sure of that. Let's be clear, I didn't deserve that treatment. It was totally unjustified. And yes she shunned me just as she did the rest of her family. Never a chance to explain and try to clear up the misunderstanding. Yes I have the scars to prove it and I just contemplated the fact that if these scars that I see are seeds. What will those full grown plants look like when she finally reaps them? That is a frightening thought and I sincerely hope that she avoids her punishment and accepts Jesus as her savior. But that stubborn self entitled deluded fool will never bow her knee to God and therefore those seeds will grow into the plants that she will one day reap. Of course those scars that are visible are just a small percentage of the damage and evil she has committed through the course of her existence. Do you now get it? Holding on to that need for vengeance and being concerned if the narc will ever pay is not only holding you back from healing, but it is stealing your peace. The frustration of having lost that investment that you made in that narcissist is also not justified. Both your positive and good reward and the narc's reward of punishment will be taken care of by God. The narcissist has one way and only one way out,: Accept Jesus as their Savior. So remember, the narcissist will reap what they have sewn, and it will be a bitter harvest. Yes, the narc was in a position to grant forgiveness even if that was for a perceived wrong done to them. Yes, the narc was in a position to give someone a hearing to listen to their concerns, but the narc refused. Not even 5 minutes of a two way conversation after a sudden discard and that conversation was nothing but lies and gaslighting. Not 5 minutes for someone they had told for 3 years they committed their lives to. Not 5 minutes for someone who never did anything to them but love them. Then all contact was forbidden. Yes, the narcissist was in a position to show compassion when it was absolutely needed, but they sternly refused. One day that narc will also be in that position and ask for mercy, but if it is after they die it will be too late. Here is the difference: the narc had a lifetime of being able to make up for their sins and a lifetime to ask for mercy and they would have received it. To say that they will pay for all of the evil they have done plus interest is really a gross understatement when you contemplate the difference between a seed and the mature plant that grows from it. Please also remember that the victim will not lose any of the kindness, compassion, love and concern that they gave to that narc. That good was not wasted, it will come back to the victim, in abundance. So after all that the narc has done, does any sane human being really think the narcissist deserves any compassion or understanding? After all the narc takes anything that is good and turns it to filth. Thank you for watching. Comments are welcomed. Peace be with you.

The Narcissist Always Gives Up and They Are Never Real: The narcissist is an adult with the emotional maturity of a five year old and when someone hears that statement for the first time they think that this must be a gross exaggeration. Surely this can't be true. The narcissist is an adult, they have lived life. It isn't possible. So, OK, maybe they are at the maturity level of a young adult or maybe a teenager. That narc has gone gray, they certainly look like and adult and they know how to appear as a mature adult, but the emotional maturity of a five year old? That is hard to believe. That narcissist proved to be a competent employee over the course of their lives. For the time of their brief employment at one job then the next. They were a father or a mother, they were a husband or a wife, they were active in charities. No, that is ridiculous, no way can they have the emotional maturity of a five year old. How is that even possible? Well let's try to get some answers. One of the narc's many flaws, you could call it an Achilles heel but the problem is the narc has many Achilles heels not just the one or two an average person might have, is that they are unable to commit to anything. Be it an individual job, a career, or any form of relationship. Yes, the relationship could be that of sibling, daughter or son, friend, girlfriend, boyfriend, significant other, spouse,or sadly even parent, the narc will only give the bare minimum of commitment and always be looking over the horizon for the next experience. So yes, the narc always gives up. They do this throughout their existence and the astonishing thing is they can't see the obvious in their lives. Of course, there are successful covert narcissists who can still fully ply their trade while maintaining a career. For the most part these successful narcs wield power or work a menial job. Either way, they are then afforded plenty of personal freedom either mentally or physically since their work environment gives them that free reign. This also applies to those narcs in long term relationships and marriages. If the narc can find a way to keep their fantasy existence alive then those long term relationships or careers are just fine, since they have use for the narc. But make no mistake, there is never any love or commitment to those careers or partners although to the partner and even to the people at the workplace it may appear the narc is dedicated and committed. However, we are talking about the average covert narcissist, not those exceptional ones. The average narcissist can't understand why their world is always in turmoil and they are always in a state of irresolution. They don't understand why they never have peace and the main reason is that when there is peace , they need to “stir the pot”, they get bored, they need to move on. Keep in mind, the narc is covert in their lack of commitment. Yes, the narc will continue to pose as the loyal employee, sister, daughter, spouse, girlfriend, parent all the while making plans for their exit. So then it is just a matter of trying to exit gracefully with a plausible excuse and making their plans without anyone detecting what is going on inside of that warped mind of theirs. Honestly, the incoherent, inconsistent, illogical, irrational world inside that narc's mind is not something a sane person could ever fully comprehend. That might be a good thing, but sane people who have had their lives destroyed by a narc unfortunately do have to understand that warped world to a certain extent. It's necessary for the victim to understand, to get their feet back on the ground, and put that narc experience in perspective. It is necessary for the victim's own personal sanity. Yes, the world the narcissist created for us was surreal, but that surreal world still has to be put into the context of the real world. Yes the surreal world was made a part of the victim's real world, whether they realized it was a farce or not. It needs to be mentioned though, that what we are describing, the narc engaging in treachery and deception, and the incredible depth and scope of their lying, is never seen as unjustified or evil to the narcissist themselves. Somehow the narcissist always has full self-justification for their actions. They will always somehow vilify the person or job or friend or relative or spouse that they are about to stab in the back. Yes the narc always sees all that they do as noble. They always see themselves as the righteous ones that have been terribly abused and mistreated. Yes, there are those self-aware narcissists, but by and large many, probably even the majority of narcissists, do see themselves as righteous. That self righteousness is the fuel that keeps them going, that allows them to perfectly deny the obvious damage they have done to every person whose lives they have touched. Those victims serve as both the outright enemy as well as the scapegoat for any culpability that hits a little too close to home for the narcissist. Yes, when the narc's treachery even comes close to implicating the narc themselves and threatens to cause the narcissist unneeded, or unexpected, or unwanted damage, the narc engages in warping reality. They change the situation through gaslighting, or any other form of lying and deception and refuse to see or accept responsibility or take the blame for their own actions. But ultimately, all of those methods pale in comparison to the narc's secret weapon of scapegoating. The narcissist's highly developed talent for scapegoating is the ultimate cure for their problems. Scapegoating washes the narcissist's misdeeds clean, gives a never ending supply of fuel for their self righteousness and creates an enemy for them to focus the rest of the people in their world on. It totally takes the attention off of the narcissist and even the narcissist is more than willing to believe their own tales of victim-hood. Yes, there are plenty of willing enablers, flying monkeys, to back up the narcissist's fabricated claims. The bottom line is the narcissist always takes the easiest way out, regardless of the damage done to others and never has any consideration whatsoever for the truth. It now becomes clear why scapegoating comes naturally to the narcissist. So, it also starts becoming easier to link the narc's stunted emotional growth to always giving up. Yes, “going when the going gets tough” is one of the many keys to explaining why the narcissist never matures, never even comes close to the level of maturity that their chronological age and there life experience and their outward persona would seem to point to. Yes, the narc has certainly learned to put on the pretense of maturity, to say and do things that appear, are perceived as mature, but it is only on the surface, an act, a farce. People who are unfamiliar with narcissism or have just recently met the narc might never understand the ruse that narc is perpetrating, but eventually, with time the narc's immaturity comes to the surface and this is usually when the narc begins to think about greener pastures. So if the narc senses they will soon be found out and will no longer be able to maintain the farce, they begin an exit strategy. On the other hand, if for some reason the narcissist is able to successfully pull the wool over people's eyes and maintain the farce, the narc then becomes bored. Yes, the narc gets bored and then begins scheming and planning. A successful farce means the narc is compelled to find something more challenging and can't help themselves but to look forward to a different venue, a new persona, another performance. Somewhere else. Yes, always giving up is clearly related to the narc's stunted emotional growth. But if there are any doubts we need to think about what happens when the narc's cleverly constructed persona is put to the test and occasionally falls to pieces. Yes, the above plans to move on, to leave are accelerated when the going begins getting tough. When the narc sees any excessive adversity or struggle they are simply given a greater incentive to engage in all of their above wiles, methods of operation. Yes, that commitment, loyalty, love, concern, respect on the part of the narcissist are all a ruse, but that ruse falls to pieces, is either partially or even fully exposed when it is put to the test. Yes, under those circumstances the narcissist gives themselves away or has great difficulty in maintaining that false persona. Once the narc knows the game is up, they simply exit. Gracefully if possible, but sometimes in any way necessary. When this departure in the face of adversity doesn't go smoothly and the narc is placed under unexpected stress there is a high risk for their true persona, the creature under the mask to be fully or partially exposed. When this does happen it creates shock in those unaware of the possibility of covert narcissism. No normal human can conceive of an intimate partner transforming into a stranger, a different persona right in front of their eyes after years of being together. No matter, the narc leaves and engages all of their carefully honed methods of protection with fluid ease. Yes, that treachery and duplicity and lying have been matured and developed to a high art. Yes, the ability to put on a fake persona has been developed to a high art as well. Just the actual person has been allowed to remain emotionally stunted at the level of a five year old. So it now begins coming into focus why the narc will be both the perennial victim and also the perpetual emotional five year old, as hard as that is to believe. The narc always gives up, always runs away when the going gets tough or conversely, when the farce they put on is no longer a challenge. So, therefore the narc never grows or matures emotionally. Only their lying, treachery, deceit, duplicity grow and mature. But of what use are those evil traits to anyone? They have no value, they are useless and even worse they do incredible damage. To others, and occasionally to the narc. But if the narc ever sees any damage to themselves, their inner five year old kicks in. That child that always has to get even, that always has to win, that always has to be right. At all costs. Then the narc goes nuclear with everything that they were about to discard anyway being vaporized. But the narc often suffers severe collateral damage themselves. No matter, as long as the victim is suffering more than they, they have still won. Yes, maturity comes from dealing with adversity, holding to a commitment and making it work, be it in a friendship, a relationship, a marriage, a career. That is how people mature and over time the benefits of sticking it out, of staying steady and firm in your commitment do show benefits. No, those benefits aren't immediate or obvious but for those who have stuck it out in situations that weren't ideal we reap the benefits. The narc will never understand or experience those benefits or ever mature. Yes, healthy people put up their best efforts to stick it out under adversity if that is what is called for. We don't always succeed, sometimes we fail, and then we have to persevere and try again. Sometimes we do have to give up, but when we give up it will be after having tried everything, having left no stone unturned, having gone the extra mile and more. Regardless, we learn and do better next time and sometimes the lesson is to let go, to stop trying. That is what maturing is all about. Sadly, the narcissist takes even that healthy attitude of a sane person trying to persevere and hold on to a commitment and perverts and twists it into an evil. Yes, the narc walks away from a committed relationship, accepts no responsibility whatsoever for the commitments that they have made and calls their partner, that did make a genuine commitment, crazy. Especially if that partner dares to seek answers. Yes, the committed person who can't immediately let go and walk away from a commitment that they made is the crazy one. The narc is the sane one. Sadly the cold hearted callousness of the narcissist does make them appear sane. To the uninformed public. We know otherwise. Thank you for watching. Comments are welcomed. Peace be with you.

Victim Status and it’s Link to Narcissism: The term victim and it’s relationship to narcissism abuse. There is an ongoing debate about the use of the term victim with regard to someone who has been abused by a narcissist. Many seem to feel that the term victim gives power to the narcissist. In addition there is the danger that someone calling themselves a victim gets sucked into the Karpman’s triangle and becomes addicted to that way of thinking, always needing to play one of the roles in that triangle. However, when the person is functionally an actual victim, shying away from that term is really just another act of denial. When the person is in an active full-fledged all encompassing relationship with a narcissist and that narc pulls up roots very suddenly without any warning or notice and immediately transfers their loyalty, their emotional loyalty and all of their intimate emotions as well as physical intimacy to another human being and flaunts that fact on a public forum, that makes the previous partner a victim. Oh yes, the narc was a “respectable” person, so they were very careful to broadcast that physical intimacy by quoting the verses of a song. A song that boasted about needing a new physical connection, a new lover, and needing it badly, right away. Well that narc didn't need it badly, they already had it, but that wasn't the point. They wanted to make sure the victim knew without saying it directly. So yes, the narcissist victimizes their previous partner and purposely tortures them emotionally when that narc rubs the new relationship into the victim's nose. After numerous other things the narc perpetrated against their previous partner, that partner having their livelihood and their personal life destroyed, that person naturally wants some answers. The only response is no contact from the narcissist. Make no mistake no contact is abuse. Someone who was promised heaven and earth by the narcissist and was told by the narc they had made a lifetime commitment was owed answers and owed some time to voice their concerns. But the narc refused. The narc did what they always do, they did what was best for themselves and for themselves alone, regardless of the consequences to anyone else. So what if the victim lost their business or lost their life. Not an ounce of effort would be put in to that previous ex. The discard was final. The narc was having too much fun with the new weasel partner in shining armor. Part of that fun was torturing the ex partner in tandem. What better way for two narcissists to bond. So you are not doing justice to this scenario by calling the ex a target, they are a victim plain and simple. No this is not being a target, it’s being a victim. There’s no pride in announcing to the world that you have been discarded, it does nothing to boost your ego or make you an admirable person to those who hear what you’ve just said, but that isn't the point. The point is to be truthful, to state the situation as it actually is. Doing less is just denying the truth and if you’re denying the truth how can you ever really look at the problem and understand how to heal yourself? So in the same way victim status and the term victim are extremely essential to use for one reason and one reason alone, because they are simply the truth. You are stating a fact. Of course you were also a target and that is true, especially when the narc first laid their eyes on you and made their plans to ensnare you. But functionally, at any point in time after the mirroring idealization phase when you started being devalued all the way to the end of that relationship when you were discarded and even afterwards when the abuse actually snowballed and continued nearly driving you to suicide, at each of those points you were not just the target but functionally and very specifically you were a victim. So when is it dangerous to use that term victim? Well it involves thinking of yourself as a victim after that narcissist abuse has finished and living the rest of your life defining yourself as a victim. Please note, this doesn't apply to people who were in a relationship with that narcissist for decades or to those who suffered with narcissist families. We are talking about those of us who were in that relationship for shorter periods of time. Let's say less than a decade. To heal we must encapsulate, put a wall around that time with the narcissist, and call ourselves a victim during that time with the narcissist. We do that because we were a victim. We deal with the reality of having been a victim. We deal with the consequences of that abuse. We heal ourselves and then we move on, and in that way we have been honest with the world and with ourselves. We were a victim but we aren’t a victim anymore. Yes we were always the target from the day that narc laid their eyes on us. But after healing has taken place we walk away victorious, a victim no longer. So what about those of us who were involved with a narcissist and had a family with them and share children? What about those who spent decades with a narc and were unaware of narcissism and could never put their finger on why that relationship was always in chaos and turmoil ? What about those of us who were raised by narc parents or were in a narc family? I am not qualified to say but I will make an educated guess. The process is the same, but here is the problem, those narcissists that victimized us have become a part of our person, they are a part of our identity and therefore the task of separating ourselves or divorcing ourselves from these narcissists becomes very time consuming and intensive. We are able to slowly do this by gaining knowledge about narcissism and applying that knowledge to our personal situation and realizing that all of those times when we were in opposition to those narcs and were told we were wrong we were actually right. We can heal from that long term narc abuse by eliminating those toxic people from our lives as much as is possible and surrounding ourselves with like minded positive thinking people with good attitudes. The healing can take place and there is the possibility of also putting victim status in the past. Yes, that same process of encapsulation and divorce can take place, but that process is different, more complex and will admittedly take far longer. So what is the ultimate take away from all of this? Our role was a victim in that relationship but the victim is not who we are. Victim does not define us. We could call ourselves survivors but there’s another problem with that term. It continues to look back at that time we had with a narcissist. The best term we can use is we were a victim, honestly use that term and admit that we were a victim, then heal ourselves. We encapsulate that time with the narcissist as a sad chapter of our life and divorce ourselves totally from that situation. We then go on with our lives having learned our lesson from that situation and go on better than we were before that tragedy of the narcissist ever came into our lives. That is the healthy attitude of a fully healed human being that was once a target and yes also once a victim, but that will never defined them. This is in stark contrast to the narcissist who is actually defined as a narcissist. It’s actually who and what they are. You can escape and move on and live a normal life. That narc will have an almost impossible task to escape what they are, what they see in the mirror every single day. Yes, the narcissist is correct about being a perennial victim, but they are mistaken about who the perpetrator is. The perpetrator that makes the narcissist a victim is the narcissist themselves. Yes the narcissist is a victim of their own narcissism and they can’t escape that narcissism very easily. The true victim is only under the illusion that they have to be a victim forever, they can walk away and more importantly the victim can avoid any future entanglements with narcissists. Yes, think of it as being in the wrong place at the wrong time. If it wasn't us, it would have been someone else that would have been "blessed" with that relationship. We will look for the all important qualities of EMPATHY, and a genuine ability to love in future partners. Partners who flatter then start lying can take a hike. NO we are not getting into another situation trying to help a "broken" person and then start making excuses for their rude and unacceptable behavior because they had a "bad childhood" and can't help themselves. Let someone else have that problem. If they can live with a narcissist and survive, good for them. We have better things to do with our lives. We paid our dues. We learned. We now expect what everyone should expect in a relationship,: someone who wants to reciprocate emotions and share life together and is able to commit to someone and be loyal. Someone who has the ability to respect their partner and treat them as an equal. Anything less is not acceptable. Thank you for watching. Comments are welcome. Peace be with you.